Editor’s Note + Poem

Restless

A found poem on the occasion of Volume 1 of the Restless journal

By: Rich Villar



Everything 

is everything,


restless. Still--


Can't complain. We tryna to get 

to this class. We  

tryna get 

this paper. Lemme get up 

with you later. 


My sister got problems. 

Landlord bugging. 

Mad papers due,

and I'm stuck on something, 

  

you know me 

 going through it

      I keep it pushing

stay focused

They stay--- 

      trying me, son

you know me

                                this is when keepin' it real 

      goes wrong

oh! what you know 

bout that song

    youngin'

oh! what you know

bout that praxis

    bro

BRO.  

they wilin' out here

can't find no rhythm

    no hector lavoe

no bell biv devoe

no jazz pockets 

    no red glare's rockets

no reason no rhyme

no getting back time

    just learning to push

Zoom in Zoom out

I'm restless out here

    but you know me.

We gonna figure it out.

We--

and by we, I mean all

of us--

we going through it:

restless, transition, 

take time give time,

consider crossings, no time 

to dream, 

barely time to sleep.


We going through it:

sidewalks uneven

portals and split screens 

trains, cars, cities, more cities,

imagination, its lack of signposts,

linearity. A good poem is movement--

shot to shot, 

line to line, 

moment to moment. Movement 


is a noun, we learn.

Movement is 12:15, 1:15, 2:15, 3:15

cinder blocks, yellow brick roads,

tan and green and grime,

time can be relentless

makes us restless

upon conditional release date

upon flat bid paperwork

upon the scattering of time

upon the buzzing iron gate

upon reclamation of our days, a harvest 

old habits die the hardest

on the chow, fellas

but sometimes a good talk

or a two hour walk

can be a choice, unconfined

landscapes defined by self

despite high curbs, no perfect circles,

miles to go.


A slammed door is a question mark--

a marker of manhood.


Some times are bitter.

Some times are sweet.


Everything is everything

Abolition is geography

Love is borderless

Freedom is a place

(says Wilson Gilmore)

and it lurks all around us

(says Baldwin)

and we

make it back here

home, time and again



restless,

and our own